Eileen White was angry for years asking God 'why me' after being diagnosed with five mental disorders.

"I was very angry because I had plans for my life.  Mental illness was not included in my plans.  It basically stopped my life for about thirty years.  I was so depressed at times I couldn't get out of bed. I wouldn't be able to get up and go to work for weeks at a time.

Eileen did not want to die.  But, she did not want to live.  Suicide was always on her mind.  "I had a couple of over doses.  I wasn't trying to klll myself.  I just wanted to go to sleep.  I couldn't deal with anything anymore.  That's how I ended up in the hospital the first time."

As a last resort, Eileen agreed to undergo electric shock treatments which lifted the depression that was hovering over her.

You can hear more from Eileen White on this week's "I Love LIfe" airing daily at 12;50p.m. on KXRB.